baby | the first week

it's been a week since we became parents and wow - what a ride. and when i say ride, i specifically mean gigantic emotional rollercoaster. 

the first few nights spent with our little sniff were confusing. we didn't understand how to manage his needs and despite all of our prep, when you realize you are suddenly in charge of a miniature human being...well, it's downright terrifying! and when that little bean is screaming and you are blundering your way through changes, feeds and various forms of cuddling, it's really more a game of "let's not kill the baby." so we stayed awake (i use that term very loosely) and took turns trying to care for him. 

on the worse nights, we are getting about three hours of sleep. we do all the things you are supposed to do, and then we rock and soothe, rock and soothe. but still he doesn't comply with our deepest wishes (that he go to sleep).

in the better (quieter) moments, i am so amazed at this beautiful human being that we created. granted i am biased but every part of him is truly perfect. in no particular order i love his nose, his lips, his eyes, his ears and his teeny tiny digits. and the smell! my god the smell. i always thought it was baby products that smelt like that - but it turns out it's the baby!

i look forward to getting to know little jackson more as the days, weeks, months, and years go by.