i don't know why, but i feel like i need to defend myself when it comes to this whole job search thing. i can't tell you how many people have said to me "well, at least you know you could find a serving job or something that isn't in the arts until the right job comes along."
i don't think that's good enough. i want a job in the arts. i worked hard for it, i have put in my time and i have the education. so why would i give up on all of that so easily? i know how these things work - you pick up a serving job "just for awhile" and then five years later you look up and wonder where the time went. or, in my case - two years later i pop out a baby and then never quite get back to where i was in my career. that's a scary thing for a woman. i want to get somewhere worthwhile before i start having children. because after that everything will be ten times more difficult.
i'm not an idiot. i know that money is a major factor and i will cave if i have to. but seeing as i am the worst pessimist/realist i know, i think my determination to do what i want with my life is to be admired not broken! not yet anyways.
here's the real reason i want to work in my chosen profession. because if i waitress or work as a cashier at a grocery store, then i'll have to fill my head with tons of information about daily specials, and ingredients and produce codes (sooo many produce codes!). the funny thing is that i'm really good at memorization so i could totally ace the knowledge expectations. but it just seems like such a waste when i so desperately want to fill my head with art and new artists and exhibition plans. i want my mind to be so full of gallery stuff that i can hardly think about anything else!
so i guess i just don't see the point in filling it with information that will (hopefully), eventually be useless to me.
please note that i'm not knocking the above mentioned jobs. i've done them for years and greatly enjoyed them. but it's not what is right for me right now. do two rights make a wrong? am i wrong to want this so badly? in today's world of out of work people, and an unsteady economic climate am i being too greedy?