specifically for me, jealously of other bloggers, crafters and those who work in the art world. it's almost inevitable isn't it? when you are ambitious there will always be people ahead of you, and you can't help but feel anxious to get where they are.
as a blogger, i see others that have twenty-seven comments on each post and eight hundred and fifty-two followers...and i can't help but feel jealous. this is not to say that a blog's success is judged solely on these qualifiers. however, one of the best parts of blogging (aside from journaling and sharing your opinion with the world) is being a part of the online community. it's one thing to have a voice. it's another to have listeners.
as a crafter, i see online shops with thousands of sales and craft show artists with cool displays and lots of customers. sometimes this inspires me to try harder and be more creative. other times i just want to sink lower on the couch and cry a little bit. it's hard when you are so anxious for your business to take off. you want orders coming in every day, you want to be featured on popular websites, you want to sell more so that you have an excuse to make more. you want more and you want it quickly.
as someone who works in the art world, it's a struggle. especially for me because i know exactly what i want to do. i want to be a curator of contemporary art in a mid sized public gallery. despite trying though, i never seem to get much closer to that goal. it doesn't help when i see old classmates and acquaintances snagging awesome jobs at hip galleries in major city locations.
people always say "they were once where you are too." but that never helps does it? i'm pretty good at shaking off the jealousy, but i want you to know i'll never deny that it's there. it exists! so we keep it to ourselves and we keep trying to attain our goals...